Tuesday, July 14, 2009
My Rolex
The boy has been 'learning' how to play the violin for almost 2 years now. He's still working on his Suzuki Violin Book #1. At $140/mth for fees + books + instrument & accessories, this works out to S$2,000 / year. By the time he's done with his Book 1, it would have cost me "My Rolex".
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Gentle heart.
2 days ago... I received a call from his teacher.... who wanted to report an incident that happened in school. The little one and his classmate had an 'argument' , quarrelled and the classmate scratched the little one. There was some scratches and some blood on his face. I think my response was , "Oh, it's ok. Did he fight back?" The teacher said no.
Quite disappointed.
This boy of ours just doesn't know how to protect himself, much less fight back. I have never seen him return a push or a shove!
Not that I want him to hurt somebody else but at least, hey, avoid being scratched with some defensive moves or something.
Yesterday, I asked the boy if they were friends again. He said yes and that he told her a joke and made her laugh.
I'm like? Huh? (****Thinking silently... This monster girl disfigured your face and you told her a joke??? And made her laugh????!??!??)
His gentle heart makes me wonder ...
...who's supposed to teach who?
Quite disappointed.
This boy of ours just doesn't know how to protect himself, much less fight back. I have never seen him return a push or a shove!
Not that I want him to hurt somebody else but at least, hey, avoid being scratched with some defensive moves or something.
Yesterday, I asked the boy if they were friends again. He said yes and that he told her a joke and made her laugh.
I'm like? Huh? (****Thinking silently... This monster girl disfigured your face and you told her a joke??? And made her laugh????!??!??)
His gentle heart makes me wonder ...
...who's supposed to teach who?
Monday, June 29, 2009
What is it?
Lately, I've been thinking about this "LOC / Lost of consciousness" episode.
Over the last couple of weeks, I've been meditating on (almost) a daily basis. The thing is, I'm suppose to lose my body and mind, watch my thoughts and hopefully in the process, get acquainted with 'the watcher'.
Now, if I want to use that fainting episode as a benchmark, then I need to be clear what happened. >>>
While I had no control over the shut down, I remember that in between the point when I realized I was propped up and not standing with my own legs till the time I was hauled to the car, I was actually conscious of what was happening. But at the same time, this consciousness was not accompanied by the body, nor was it accompanied by a thinking head.
I was just aware of what was happening. I had no control over the body, which I don't seem to know I had, nor was I wondering (with the mind) why I was being hauled by 2 people.
If my mind was working, it would have gone, "Oh shit! Not again!" But it wasn't... and so I didn't relate or make sense of what was happening.
If the body was mine, then the excruciating pain in my back should have been felt, but neither body nor pain was available to me then.
After a while, things did come back to me and the mind was the first to arrive. (Maybe that's tougher one to rid of?) But, I remember I felt like my brain had been washed and polished - the kind of feeling you get once in a blue moon when you wake up from your sleep with exactly the amount of rest that you needed... not one bit more or less, but exactly enough so that you feel extremely refreshed and alert.
Next was the body and similarly, it felt very rested and very new - good enough for the mind to be cheated into thinking that all's well.
Followed shortly, by the wretched nerves which came back to light me with their pain again.
So there, that was what happened and plausibly the only time I was conscious without body or mind...
... and if only I can achieve that state again during my meditation....
Someone hit my head!!!
Over the last couple of weeks, I've been meditating on (almost) a daily basis. The thing is, I'm suppose to lose my body and mind, watch my thoughts and hopefully in the process, get acquainted with 'the watcher'.
Now, if I want to use that fainting episode as a benchmark, then I need to be clear what happened. >>>
While I had no control over the shut down, I remember that in between the point when I realized I was propped up and not standing with my own legs till the time I was hauled to the car, I was actually conscious of what was happening. But at the same time, this consciousness was not accompanied by the body, nor was it accompanied by a thinking head.
I was just aware of what was happening. I had no control over the body, which I don't seem to know I had, nor was I wondering (with the mind) why I was being hauled by 2 people.
If my mind was working, it would have gone, "Oh shit! Not again!" But it wasn't... and so I didn't relate or make sense of what was happening.
If the body was mine, then the excruciating pain in my back should have been felt, but neither body nor pain was available to me then.
After a while, things did come back to me and the mind was the first to arrive. (Maybe that's tougher one to rid of?) But, I remember I felt like my brain had been washed and polished - the kind of feeling you get once in a blue moon when you wake up from your sleep with exactly the amount of rest that you needed... not one bit more or less, but exactly enough so that you feel extremely refreshed and alert.
Next was the body and similarly, it felt very rested and very new - good enough for the mind to be cheated into thinking that all's well.
Followed shortly, by the wretched nerves which came back to light me with their pain again.
So there, that was what happened and plausibly the only time I was conscious without body or mind...
... and if only I can achieve that state again during my meditation....
Someone hit my head!!!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
TV
The big one banned the small one from watching TV for a week on Sunday. The ban was communicated to the village. On Monday, we returned to see him watching TV in the village. The village head explained that the small one had petitioned on the logic that 'the ban was no TV, not no videos'. Not impressed, the big one handed down a tougher sentence, "No TV for 2 weeks! No Video and No Wii too!"
We watched Transformers together yesterday.
Movies on big screens ok it seems.
We watched Transformers together yesterday.
Movies on big screens ok it seems.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
GNC Women's Ultra Mega Dietary Supplement....
... "High potency vitamin and mineral formula designed for a woman's nutritional needs."
Hahahha!!! Plus it's vegetarian! Hair for sure won't drop due to malnutrition now. Yay!!!
Hahahha!!! Plus it's vegetarian! Hair for sure won't drop due to malnutrition now. Yay!!!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Abandoned.
I've not eaten any meat since the 29th of May. Even my mother has noticed it and ominously warned that my hair will start dropping off in clumps if I don't take any meat. Anyway, it's been a couple of weeks and enough time for lunch companions to notice too.
I was questioned why...
"Is it for health?"
"Is it for religion?"
... and I don't really have an answer for it.
I've flirted with it for ages, having not ate pork for years until the pregnancy cravings reversed that. Having nothing but Yong Tau Fu ( the ones that had very little meat in them ) or claypot vege for months while in uni and so forth. But somehow, I'd end up eating some meat, some of the time. The totality of not eating any meat at all was never there.
At least not until now.
It's been 2 odd weeks. I don't know if this thing will be permanent. But this time round, it's feels different. It feels like I'm not running away from meat... but that meat abandoned me.
I thought it might be difficult to avoid it... but it's actually been quite easy. Because when meat abandons you, even staring at it doesn't stir up any emotions. There's neither disgust nor cravings. You look at it and see other people eat it and it's left as that.
Soya bean milk anyone?
I was questioned why...
"Is it for health?"
"Is it for religion?"
... and I don't really have an answer for it.
I've flirted with it for ages, having not ate pork for years until the pregnancy cravings reversed that. Having nothing but Yong Tau Fu ( the ones that had very little meat in them ) or claypot vege for months while in uni and so forth. But somehow, I'd end up eating some meat, some of the time. The totality of not eating any meat at all was never there.
At least not until now.
It's been 2 odd weeks. I don't know if this thing will be permanent. But this time round, it's feels different. It feels like I'm not running away from meat... but that meat abandoned me.
I thought it might be difficult to avoid it... but it's actually been quite easy. Because when meat abandons you, even staring at it doesn't stir up any emotions. There's neither disgust nor cravings. You look at it and see other people eat it and it's left as that.
Soya bean milk anyone?
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